HAPPY CNY 2007
my sister and a whole bunch of my cousins and my nephew and niece are going to Hong Kong tomorrow. ahhhh, i wished i could go too, but not at the expense of my studies.
well, the first day of CNY was nice. we were exceptionally early this year. woke up at 7am. can you believe it? just to attand mass. then we went visiting and here and there.
2nd day. well we were supposed to go have morning tea at east ocean BUT, because it was fully booked, we had to settle for macdonalds instead. had steamboat in the evening. enjoyed myself A LOT A LOT with my cheeky nephew.

sometimes i really wonder why reality has to be so harsh.
for the past few days, bad memories just came flooding into my mind. i just need to spit it all out.
because of her, my mother refuses to go back to Risen Christ. because of her, my relationship with my godma is spoilt. i haven talked to her for months and this is not good at all. i just dont understand why she has to be like this. i just cant accept the way she is.

the issue with F.
i dont know why but somehow, i feel that i need some space, i just dont like her hanging around us. i need space to breathe. has she ever felt guilty over what she has done? she deosnt seem to feel shy about it. she is trying to sabotage us. i guess this friendship will just end. i finally know how alex feels. its very tormenting. i just wish she would get out of my life. and im happy we are sec 4s now.

everything has been telling me to just let go of the past, my horescope, the readings during mass, to forgive and forget and to love my enemies. but i just cant, its human nature. its difficult. i wished reality wasnt that harsh.